Melancholia

He wakes up to another day,
To a decrepit world and in disarray,
As darkness looms,
In hope to brighten up his path,
He tried to reach, but to one deceivious torch,
As he gazes out upon crumbled ruins beneath nebulous sky,
The sound of lightning can be heard,
And precipitation on the window can be seen.

He weeps to another day,
As he fixes his bowtie, in front of a shattered mirror,
He stares into the eyes of the reflection,
And a question he asks, with no intended listener,
"What is wrong with you?"
With little effort, he puts on his age-old mask,
And he is now the impersonation of all that is lovely.


LMX
Monday
28/04/19

Balloon

That day we first met
I was so over the air
My crippled heart screams of joy
And it was two steps, from heaven

And, you left
My body, stranded
My heart, squeezes
And I am now two steps, from hell



You turned my heart, into a free floating balloon,
Effortlessly, triumphantly, parading in the sky
And Pammmmmm! It burst mid-way.


LMX
Wednesday
17/04/19

Wednesday

I met my long lost friend today,
Funny, it seems like yesterday we've just talked,
"How are you?"
Words I spelled out only inside my heart.
I just smiled.

But she'll be alright
Because she's still the kinda girl that I know
Strong, resilient, charming
Yes, she'll be alright


I have place to go
But I can't recall where it is
I just remember, every day of today
I have place to go
Another wasted Wednesday
I do know, but I should not
I end up staring blank for rest of the night.


LMX
Wednesday
23/1/2019

Sabbatical

Like a desert traveller, lost in starry nights,
And such luck, his old compass finally gives up on him.

Much fate, I am no different,
Stuck with dead dreams, out of inspiration, heading nowhere,
I don't see reasons to lift the scribbling pencil once more.

Oh, is she going to read this? How about the others? Did she already?
Or, is she, like the old compass, already long gone?

Nevertheless Heartbroken, I bid farewell.


I tried,
Just that some nights, it is terribly hard to endure.
Why? Don't bother.
I try again.


LMX
Tuesday
27/11/2018
Deep slumber chamber

Admonished

Do you still remember?
The scorching summer, when all scattered in the vaporising wind
With hoarseness in our voice
We both reached a path, that neither of us choose to be

Strangers we are in every way,
Still, I believe in every little words of yours
As I'm too afraid to confront my own will
Will that is often devoured by loneliness

Because
Somehow, you remind me of
The past that don't really go past
That somehow, some kind of true love
Don't belong to me

And
Somehow you remind me of
Even if I have the world
That somehow, some happiness that I yearn
Truly will never belong to me


LMX
Monday
08/10/18

A Familiar Place

Sometimes,
I felt I'm drifting inside a bottled boat
Aimlessly, with waves of time
Then, I found myself
In a familiar place
I try to paddle, and paddle
Away into the emptiness that lies ahead
As I lie and look at the vast sky
I recall the old times
And a comforting voice lingers around the mist
Turning my head around
Only to find I'm all by myself
Again, back to a familiar place

What’s left is just me
Pacing in rounds


LMX
Wednesday
03/10/18

Wish

How I wish
I could be with you

To count with you
Stars in the heavens

To collect with you
Drops of drizzle in the spring

Recounting stories of those olden days
Feelings of affection in your eyes

How I wish



5/8/2018
Bintulu

Tulip

"I have never taken photo for anyone quite this way.

When one supposes to have their eyes glued to camera screen, I manage to do it clumsily. I can't take my eyes off of her.

She poses readily yet I'm in mess. The beautiful scenery, surrounding flowers and annoyingly endless crowd of tourists, they just went away.

Leaving only her smile, and vault between my eyes and hers, and unexplained calamity."


If only God grants wishes,
I hope time will stop,
And we forever stay in that moment.


Singapore
8th May 2018
Gardens by the Bay

Post Mortem

She laughed so hard,
On silly jokes,
Sometimes tears would come to her eyes.

She's easily moved emotionally,
On cute happy things,
That I could feel her tears last long till the end of the day.

I never understood,
How someone spent her time,
Brighten other people's day,
Could hate herself so much,
But she did quite passionately.

The only person I ever heard say a single bad thing about her, was her,
So I tried to protect her,
To get her see what I saw,
That she was lovely, she was amazing,
And utterly intimidating.

And I don't wish for more. Really.


You have to do that for the people you love right? Let them fight their own battles, even if being helpless breaks your heart into two.


KLIA
1011pm,
Valentines' Day 2018

Accident

Beep
My phone rings a text message
I wish it is from you
I glance and peep
And it isn't

Beep
My phone rings again
It has to be from you
I glance and peep
Still, it isn't

*Crash*

Beep
My phone rings
Beep
Beep

I swear I tried to lift my fingers, but I couldn't. Is it now I'm going to die? The text messages, I know it is from her. Forget the texts. I have to call her. Now or never. But shit, I'm dying.



4/2/2017
1230am
Lalaland, Bintulu